The niggling doubts and weight of tasks waiting, they all slip quietly away as I return to painting for the first time proper since arriving in Italy. Realigning the molecules and emotional body! The sun and breeze come in the window, I pause occasionally to reassure the cat/ drink tea/ eat crisps. The world seems easier.
The house is gaining stability- it is laid out better, and my mind feels in a similar state! Nothing like reorganising the external space, to reciprocate a feeling of order within... as above, so below.
It is a little nerve-wracking always, to begin afresh after so long not painting, but this time there is so much space, fresh air, clean silence and nourishing warmth surrounding me, that the settling into it is much simpler.
I began looking at the instruction manual for my new website today; this is a real step- beginning again with my public profile/ presentation of work and ideas. My current main website www.claregalloway.co.uk has been through multiple transformations, and has been an immensely useful tool in gaining understanding and structure of my own work, and in my relationship with the public... the new site will afford me a little more objectivity, and will secure my distance from my audience.
Everything is a new beginning: relationship, work, business organisation, house, garden, language, food, air! It is a real rebirth, but slow and hard slog! My mind struggles at moments, to digest and to express, but on the whole, this is a truly immense opportunity to recreate, and I am, if methodically, rising to the challenges as they appear on the horizon!